hmm

For once, for once, for once I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong... That song fits pretty well with some situation that is now unfolding in my life. I feel small, worried, and sad. I begin to feel the things I felt for the couple of year ago, which definitely weren't pretty. Sometimes I kinda hate myself for being so lack of everything :( 

New classmates

It's wednesday, and tomorrow is my first day being a twelfth. Gah! holiday is over :'(

All is new, new classroom, new classmates, new teachers, new subjects, but not new me. I'm still the old Rara who hates a new classmate.

Having a new classmates is like a nightmare to me. Well, I'm not kind of those who talks a lot and easily assimilates with new people. I find it hard to get to know new people.

Since I received my report card, this is what I always think and worry about. How is my new classmates? How if they wouldn't be nice to me? How if they were vain? And soo much "How if" this and "how if" that.

I know I shouldn't predujice about new classmates. Cause I haven't even been in the class and got to know them. But you knowww, no one of my close friend were in the same class with me :((((

Oh I forgot to mention :o, well XII IPA 5 is my new class.

So, for my eleventh-grade classmates (simpanse), thaaaaanks a lot guys. Thanks for coloring my life, thanks for your craziness, thanks thanks thanks for everything you have been done. We might not together anymore, but you guys always be in a special place, in the heart :')

hmm the last thing to say, hopefully my new classmates will be nice and bring lots of fun for the last year on highschool :)

THE WORST DAY. EVER.

At first, it was normally sunday. Ngebo, ntn kartun, les privat, etc.

and it became not-normally-sunday anymore since I going to cindo's house to do our art work.

Hari penuh kesialan, balaaaaaaak Dx

Aku keruma cindo, terus keruma vanty buat ambil kanvas. Vantynya lagi ga diruma, ketok ketok pager lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa beudz se beudz beudz nya ga juga dibukain -__-

Tapi akhirnya dibukain kok haha, ya tapi lama banget -.-

Balik ke ruma cindo, owkay kita langsung menggambar. Beberapa jam kemudian ujan turun dengan sangat derasnya *wussss*. Si cindo disuru emaknya buat nutup pintu & jendela kamarnya -dilantai dua- , daripada sendirian dibawah jadi aku ngikutin cindo. Tiba tiba -sebelumnya Cindo pernah nyeritain hal hal mistis tentang rumahnya, ada pocong lah, ada suara suara lah, duh duuuuh- aku denger ada suara ''nguuuuuuk''. Kaget :O, langsung lari ke arah cindo, dan reflek memeluk kaki cindo *pulis deh -__-* eeeeeh ternyata kepleset huhuhu

jempol kakiku sakeeeeeeeeeeeeeet

lama kelamaan bengkak, aw aw awwwww

Sekitar jam 7an aku mau pulang. Ternyata Cindo ngikut ke ruma, katanya dia mau fotokopi jadwal UAS + tugas kimia. Aaaaaa ternyata masi ujan, nekat wes ga ngurus!

Abis fotokopi, nganter cindo pulang -cindo yg nyetir, karena, you know, jempolkuuuuuu sakidh beudz huhuhu-

Jalan ke ruma Cindo melewati sebuah terowongan pendek gitu, eh ternyata disitu banjirnya dalem. Tapi kita tetep aja nekat ngelewatin. Alhasil. Yeah. motorku mogok di tengah terowongan kecil -__________-

Kemudian kita menyeret si reddy -yang kembung kebanyakan minum air- sampai ke tepian *berasa di pantai*. Huaaaa reddy gamau nyala. hik hik. Untung disana ada Bapak2 mau bantu ngeluarin air dari perut si reddy. Si reddy sampe diangkat2, biar airnya keluar. Alhamdulillah bisa nyala sih. tp tetep aja! gak.bisa.jalan.apalagi.kalo.di.gas.banter.banter!

Bapak2 itu tadi uda pergi. Yasuda, aku menyeret si reddy ke tempat lain. Ga lama, bapaknya Cindo dateng ke TKP. Si reddy diangkat2 lagi. Tapi tetep, gabisa jalan kalo digas banter. huhuhu :((

Terpaksa! Pulang ke rumah nyeret si reddy, ya Allaaaaah :((

uda kakiku bengkak segede wortel, gerimis, jalan malem malem nyeret motor

duh duuuuuh. sial sekali hari ini!

That's why. I REALLY HATE TODAY!

PS:

terimakasih ya Bapaknya Cindo uda ngangkat2 si reddy, maaf merepotkan :\

makasi jg ya ndo, uda nemenin sampe ruma hehe

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I'm feeling so down right now :(

I wanna write on here, but I don't know how to describe :(

I basically hate my life. cause I don't know the meaning of life!

If you smile through your pain and sorrow, You'll find that life is still worthwhile, You'll see the sun shining through for you - smile lyrics _(edited)

how can I smile in my pain and sorrow huh

mymom

There're many beautiful dates on this month, yea october

-beautiful dates, not beautiful events-

1. October, 2^nd 2010 . It was my birthday. I hate growing elder :p
2. October, 10^th 2010 . It was sooo beautiful date. There're many people who get married on that day. But nothing special happened to me. just like the other day, flat
3. October, 20^th 2010 . It's today, The not-so-good wednesday. I got something unpleasant. --- Mom call me during english lesson, in tears :O. I'm afraid something bad happened to my mom. She told me to go home, She said that she was feeling unwell. And at that time no one at home :O abis izin ke bk, aku langsung pulang. Alhamdulillah, she feel lil bit better. I hope my mom isn't exposed to dangerous disease. Amen :)

uh

no one remember