hmm

For once, for once, for once I get the feeling that I'm right where I belong... That song fits pretty well with some situation that is now unfolding in my life. I feel small, worried, and sad. I begin to feel the things I felt for the couple of year ago, which definitely weren't pretty. Sometimes I kinda hate myself for being so lack of everything :( 

Unicorn

Ini mungkin kali pertama aku bisa merasakan yang namanya bahagia nerima tugas dosen selama menjadi mahasiswa. Tugasnya adalah membuat logo perusahaan / produk plus penjelasannya. Dan gambar dibawah ini nihh logo buatanku. Simpel sih, tapi aku mbikinnya dengan penuh perasaan :3 serta diselimuti oleh rasa gembira yang jarang sekali aku rasakan saat mengerjakan tugas kuliah......ups

Iya, logoku bergambar unicorn. Emm ceritanya aku lagi buka butik khusus cewek yang namanya "GA boutique". Nama butik GA ini memiliki 2 arti, yang pertama merupakan kepanjangan dari Grace & Awesome (keanggunan & mengagumkan) dan yang kedua merupakan kepanjangan dari si pemilik butik, Gusti Ayu. Terus kenapa logonya unicorn? Soalnya lucu sih haha, terus unicorn itu merupakan simbol keanggunan dan kealamian :3 cocok banget sama produk-produk butik GA. Coba lihat ke hidung unicorn nya, itu adalah huruf G dan A. Sekarang lihat ke rambutnya, rambutnya ada 8 helai tuh =)) soalnya kan 8 merupakan angka keberuntungan dan merupakan satu satunya angka yang ga terputus, jadi biar rejeki di butik ini ngalir terus n ga pernah putus gitu deh :P amin *muekso*.

Self told

So I tell myself, "Don't try to please people by doing things that don't really belong to you. Because once you've pleased and impressed them, the only thing that is left is YOU. Why keep doing things you don't love when you have a right to choose what you want to do? Allow yourself to dream. Allow yourself to reach your highest star. Just don't allow yourself for doing thing that is not right for you. There is no sorry needed, mistake you had done in the past will guide you to a better person. You deserve the best once you've done your best".
I'm looking forward to a new fresh start. Only sometimes I'm still questioning whether I capable or not..... Semoga saja bisa. Bismillah...

Sigh No More

Love; it will not betray you

Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free
Be more like the man you were made to be

There is a design, an alignment to cry
Of my heart to see,
The beauty of love as it was made to be

— Mumford & Sons

rabbit headpiece

Rabbit's ear headpiece made from some easy-to-find materials such as: wire as the framework, sisa kain kebaya (or you can replace with kain tile), and some velvet ribbon. 

Why did I make this? Iseng buat foto foto haha. Tapi ternyata kalo aku yang make ga cocok -_-. So, thanks to my little sister for being the model xixixi.

emmmwuaachh :*

Dreamcatcher

The dream net has been made

For many generations

Where spirit dreams have played.

Hung above the cradle board,

Or in the lodge up high,

The dream net catches bad dreams,

While good dreams slip on by.

Bad dreams become entangled

Among the sinew thread.

Good dreams slip through the center hole,

While you dream upon your bed.

This is an ancient legend,

Since dreams will never cease,

Hang this dream net above your bed,

Dream on, and be at peace.

-quoted from here

Couple days ago I made this to put on my bedroom. Look at the feathers, I got them from my mom's sulak :|

I used an embroidery hoop for the bigger circle and a bag handle for the smaller one. Making the net wasn't as complicated as your eyes might see. It wasn't that hard :D believe me.. There're so many helpful tutorials on google :D.

IntanPsptsr: We met in this lovely class - Simpanse :3

IntanPsptsr: We met in this lovely class - Simpanse :3: Okee kali ini flashback dikit yaaa, aku jadi pengen nulis tentang aku n temen2ku kelas XI.Yap temen2 simpanse. Ya di kelas ini aku memang p...

Little rabbit's confusion

The two options actually have no difference, both are about "a way to reach the carrot paradise". Only each option has its own goods' and bads' which make the little rabbit find it so difficult to decide. Little rabbit's head become so foggy that everything around her take on mystical appearance. She can't see anything as clear as she was. Hmm maybe she should just sit it out and waiting for the fog to lift..

Sedikit Pengingat :)

Dari sebuah note sahabat (Fauzi Ahmad Zaki Amirullah)


KENAPA AKU DIUJI?
“Apakah manusia itu mengira bahwa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; “Kami telah beriman,” sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta.” -Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3

KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216

KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya.” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286

AKU TAK DAPAT BERTAHAN LAGI!
“… ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir.” -Surah Yusuf ayat 12

AKU FRUSTASI!“Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman.” - Surah Al-Imran ayat 139

BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan).” -Surah Al-Imran ayat 200

“Dan mintalah pertolongan(kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk” -Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45

KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?
“Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal.” -Surah At-Taubah ayat 129

APA YANG AKU DAPAT DARI SEMUA INI?
“Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2 mu’min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka…” -Surah At-Taubah ayat 111



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November 30 daily horoscope

Lately I've been in a not-so-good mood. So many things running through my useless head.
And here I just want to show yesterday's horoscope. FYI, I don't always believe what it said. Cuman kadang sesuai sama yg sedang aku alami sih hehe

“You may be confused about where you want to go with your life, Libra. Your perspective keeps changing, and so do the elements that contribute to the choices you need to make. Perhaps you feel as though you’ve had the rug pulled out from under you, or that you’re standing on shaky ground – or even that you’ve fallen into quicksand and you’re sinking quickly with no idea how to climb out. But you’re just fine. Yu do have some important decision to make about your future, but if you allow your heart and your intuition to lead you, you will do everything right.”

So, yeah, that's what I've been thinking lately. Where I want to go with my life? Who I really am? I still haven't figure it out perfectly. Is it normal for an EIGHTEEN-year-old who still haven't found a place where she actually belongs? 

Sebenernya bukan cuma tentang itu which refers to "things" that running through my head.. There are a lot more. But I might sound pathetic if I keep telling, so suddenly my fingers freezed and.......fullstop. 

My College Life (so far)

Whoaaa it’s been like 3 months I didn’t write any post. I haven’t even told about my next destination after graduated from high school. Well, now I’m a student of PENS / EEPIS and I’m taking Computer Engineering as my study. There are sooo many things to tell during my 3 months disappearance from blog and my 3 months of being an official college student which I actually want to write here. Like, how those creepy orientation was, how desperate I was during my first days in college, how I learn to made myself getting use to my college life, how stupid my face was the first time I operated electronic tools that was totally ‘brand-new’ to me, how my teacher caught me when my eyes were half-open and my mind wander off everywhere, how I met my new awesome friends, how awesome my 18th birthday was, and….how I met someone who is taking the most part of my brain, someone who always put a smile on my face and made me thank to God for every single day I had in college :3.

Being an EPPIS student is not as easy as people thought. We can’t be kupu-kupu (kuliah-pulang-kuliah-pulang). I barely go home when the sun is still shining, tasks are given almost every day and now I have 2 new things that should be done in every week: lappen and lapres. They really stressed me out at first, but then I saw my seniors and told myself, “They could survive, why couldn’t I do so? All I have to do is getting use to my college life and stop complaining. Do my best to learn, grow with, and enjoy the process. Plus, I have him to keep me on spirit :3”. So here I am, on my way leaving all bad thoughts of how exhausting my college life was, I almost reach the finish line! May the odds be ever in my favor o:). 

Here are some pictures I want to share..

This is a picture of some of my classmates. Taken on the last day of OMB.

Even we are more blue than the sky :P 

Buntu di lab nga a a 

 

Taken on the first day of PraTD

And this is how my unforgettable 18th birthday surprise was. Disaat malam2 buntu nunggu dosen tiba-tiba dari luar ada yg bawa kue sambil nyanyi Happy Birthday :3 Awww how sweet :3. Duh! This is a really really late post but whatever, thankyouuu soooo much for Intan, Cindo, Dini and especially for the one who planned this. I love you© :3

pengen ngeblog yg bermutu

"pengen gitu bisa nulis/ngeblog yg isinya bagus n bermutu..."


That sudden realization after I read  intan's tweet.....
The whole stuff I wrote on my blog are just so useless. None of my post is worth reading......
I just realized that.....
And I was like

Then there's a part of me that said "Why bother so much? Wasn't your real purpose of making this blog just for another diary?.."

Another part of myself also told "That was. Yet, wouldn't it be more awesome if you write something worthy?"
huaa tapi buntu.. Aku tak pandai merangkai kata kata ._.

May 15 daily horoscope

Hi.. It's been a looooong time I didn't write anything. As usual, busy and lazy :P
Well, I come here only to post this...

"Pretend for a moment that love is like a star in the sky. It twinkles in the distance. It is surrounded bu darkness. It is far away and unattainable. You can't, after all, get in your rocket ship and soar to a star. If you have felt cynical or hopeless about having the best kind of love in your life, it may be because you are - without realizing it - thinking of it as something you cannot really have. But you can. And the time has never been better. Take the first step toward either healing an existing relationship, or reaching out for a new one."




I'm done. bye bye :*
Anyway, wish me luck for the SNMPTN. May the odds be ever in my favor o:)

2012

Hey people. 

It's been a long time I didn't make any post. Well, I've been busy cause school crappy stuffs. Exams, remedial tests... Ugh, that was super tiring. In that moment, I feel like I was followed by a huge dark cloud which brought me lots of bad lucks. My result is getting worse, way worse than the previous semester :(. ambleg parah :(. Not that I didn't study before exam. I DID!! Yet my luck was really bad. 

Some friends got a good result, but they cheated, well because they had a chance and I didn't. Ugh! It's so pissing me off!. I envy them -_-. 

Okay, it's some of reason why I AM SO GLAD that 2011 has already passed. Now I'm trying to forget all the bad things on 2011 and take the lesson for be a better person on 2012. 

2012 resolution? Hmm haven't really thought about it. One thing for sure: no more procrastination!. Study hard,  practice a lot and praying for UNAS and SNMPTN. Bismillah..

shooting star

I just changed my blog tittle to the old one. The one I used before simploland, it was shooting star. So now I'm using shooting star again hehe.
Do you wonder what does it mean? Umm gonna write it soon here.

happy lebaran ^^

Ramadhan.. The 30 holy days which is us, muslims, always waiting for. The 30 holy days of restraining our lusts with no eating, no drinking, no lying, no anger and no more bad things.

Well, ever done wrong in life is human nature. We all know, nobody's perfect. So, as an imperfect normal human all I want to say is...

Happy Eid Mubarak 1432 H

Minal Aidin Wal Faidzin

Forgive all mistake I ever made, all hurting words I ever said, either intentionally or unintentionally :)

Let's take this opportunity as a whip to be a better person!

Hope we're able to get to the next Ramadhan. InshaAllah :)

It's probably a to-do list

"I really need to get the hell out of school for a moment" was what always came up my mind during those creepy daily tests and ponrom. But now it's over and........ the brain-resting days are coming at last! :D :D :D

Actually, sometimes I wonder why do I always overexcited when holiday is coming? As if I would have an amazing holiday ._. Well, hopefully parents will bring me to somewhere place, because if they won't, I'm pretty sure I'll end up sitting in front of my laptop, connected to internet and then, as usual, faffing around in there. Unless I have another things to do..... oh Wait! I apparently do have them :3

In the case of avoiding the boring-moments, since this is what never been absent of attending every moment in my entire life, I have prepared some novels and dvds which I borrowed from vanty in the other day.

Hope I'm done reading and wacthing them right when holiday finished.

I also have 3 unanswered letters and a postcard. So, writing the answer is what I'm going to do.

I mean, yes, this is another way of avoiding the boring-moments :p.

Ummm I haven't really thought what's next :s Then I made a little to-do list which I'm going to do if I'm not lazy (I'm quite procrastinator hehe). And here it goes..

• Tidy up my super messy room. Mom always yell at me whenever she finds out my messy room and you know, she's yelling not just once but thousand times. I wonder how she made herself yelling the same things everytime -.- Alright, Which moms ever let her daugthers's room looks like a landfills?
• Studying. It's hard to believe that I am one of the very senior student at school. Yes, time goes by so fast... Yes, I'm gonna have a BIG exam... Yes, I need to study hard to get to my brighter future... hahaha sok sok an -_- I actually failed at 3 out of 6 subjects in my creepy daily tests :p So, remedial tests is the main excuse why I planned to study during holiday :p hehe (padahal uda belajar nggetu loh, tapi masih aja remed huhu menyedihkan)
• Make up my blog appearance. I get bored of the looks of my blog. I need to change some stuff. And that cheesy facebook and tumblr button got my attention :P
• Buy some souvenir. I need to buy some Indonesian handmade for my penpal :3. Cari yang murah, ringan, dan cukup di amplop haha :D

That's it??? I guess Yes.

New classmates

It's wednesday, and tomorrow is my first day being a twelfth. Gah! holiday is over :'(

All is new, new classroom, new classmates, new teachers, new subjects, but not new me. I'm still the old Rara who hates a new classmate.

Having a new classmates is like a nightmare to me. Well, I'm not kind of those who talks a lot and easily assimilates with new people. I find it hard to get to know new people.

Since I received my report card, this is what I always think and worry about. How is my new classmates? How if they wouldn't be nice to me? How if they were vain? And soo much "How if" this and "how if" that.

I know I shouldn't predujice about new classmates. Cause I haven't even been in the class and got to know them. But you knowww, no one of my close friend were in the same class with me :((((

Oh I forgot to mention :o, well XII IPA 5 is my new class.

So, for my eleventh-grade classmates (simpanse), thaaaaanks a lot guys. Thanks for coloring my life, thanks for your craziness, thanks thanks thanks for everything you have been done. We might not together anymore, but you guys always be in a special place, in the heart :')

hmm the last thing to say, hopefully my new classmates will be nice and bring lots of fun for the last year on highschool :)

When I adored a well-known people

Have a guess, Who is an Indonesian singer that sing in his wonderfu voice? Well he wear a glasses and absolutely looks adorable in it. Plus, he become well-known by his "terimakasih cinta".

Yes, yes, right! It's Afgan Syahreza haha. When I was in middle school, I was his huugee fan haha afganisme :p. I used to love and adore him sooo much, I had his pictures more than 10 on my mobilephone and of course I had all his songs which I listen to everyday. I had him on my wallpaper mobilephone, laptop desktop background and also on my wall xD. Day by day, I started daydreaming, wishing and wondering if I could date him. LOL xD

I know. I knew there's no way I could get along with him, even less dadi pacare. huakaka kebodohan -.-

imut ya? haha. But now, I'm no longer his huge fan since....i don't know.

fyi, now he's getting a bit fatter *_*

Well, if you read my previous post, you'd know that I found a new one. haha :p

Wanna see my new appearance of my mobile phone? here it goes...

he's soooooooo hot :3

umm and I guess I already started wishing and wondering the same thing as I mentioned before xD

This is kind of soooo-not-happening. whocares? :p

Devon Bostick

If Bella the Gembel didn't text me at that time, I wouldn't have any desire to watch Diary of a wimpy kid, which is obviously, was a great movie xD Watch it, you'll laugh out loud xD (kid movie? like I care -.-)

Plus that guy who were Rodrick Haffley (Devon Bostick) is sooo hooot :3 . I think I'm in love with him :P Hes got a sexy lip muahahaha

Then I googled him, and found this video. Check this out!!

lmao =))
sumpa yooo ganteng pollll huahaha